O pen up…

Maybe I just killed it or never cared to fill it
Happiness has been lost has become a thing of the past
Who is to blame for this ultimate shame
who cut the smiles off my cheerful face
What is joy but an ingenious ploy
Of the stupid mind deaf and blind
Smiles were all false fulfilment was a farce
unable to stand not able to withstand
the wrongs of the world never ever bold
in the face of adversity searching for pity
pity is what I deserve for the wounds I preserve
And the hatred I nurture that tears me like a vulture

Empty am I, as empty as I was ever meant to be
the end is the same but the script could’ve been different
Empty are lives and so are the hearty smiles
that can fill the void an’ make sure you enjoyed
every day every hour an’ every moment of your life
Savour the moment savour your life
savour the beauty of the endless strife

I gotta crush on the female in the show
on the TV, I wish even I can go
in the box an’ tell her my heart
an’ lock her lips and stretch ‘em apart
she’s gonna kill me, the TV guys will pull me
they’ll put me on a bed an’ beat me to death
but I ain’t gonna lose the sight of my love
I’ll keep starin’ as I’m doin’ it now
when she comes on TV an’ does a dance
I know she ain’t seein’ me but she does give a glance
I wanna lick her body naked and touch her everywhere
if I ain’t gonna make it I’ll strip her body bare
in my imagination, that is my destination
with no rules I’m gonna live my fascination
she’s mine I’m hers, we’re gonna do it all the time
the dream is mine, you can’t stop me from my beautiful rhyme

Lying on the sand, looking at the skies
the waves of the ocean tickling my thighs

crescent moon lying in the middle of the stars
descending to kiss me in the late night hours

the calm of the night, the kiss of the breeze
the dance of the stems of the mahogany trees

the beauty on earth and the wonders above
fill my heart to the brim with love

Raindrops raindrops falling from the heavens
pearls of the blue sky splashing on the ovens

Flirting with the flowers, dirtying the towers
pouring on the covers, engaging the lovers

the showers of the heaven hit the tins of the town
the winds of the ocean broke the silence of the noon

Life taught me lessons
when I least wanted them
the more I sought the riches
the poorer I became

Never was I loved
by the angels of my past
to the demons had I bowed
to get the pride lost

Curt was the voice
the intent was to hurt
my heart stupid coward
had to deal with the dirt

the tears dried on my cheeks
the feelings emptied out
my fears reached their peaks
I was totally worn out

What ensued was peace
and a lot of earthly warmth
as I was brought to my knees
my mind lost its charms

Freed was my soul
from the vanities it owned
greed was the sinner
that got itself stoned

I was walking down the road
in a strange mood, bored
as cars honked ‘Pom pom’
I followed no norm

I was irking everyone
blocking every turn
I laughed my heart out
I heeded no shout

I was tickling my inside
not letting a happy ride
I made them stand by
and jus killed their joy

I jus like to have fun
you seem to be the wrong one
honking shouting crying
I’ll be this till I am dying… ha ha ha….

Never blind I was in my heart
never was I crippled in my thought

My eyes can’t see, my heart sure can
feel the nature and its beauty hidden

Sing I can with my heart divine
the song written by my purest mind

Pure you should be deep within
live not blind with your eyes open

He said to the Guru ‘
I confess I sinned
I lied to the world
I misbehaved with children
I raped females
I killed people
I ate the flesh
I sought pleasures despicable
I deserve to be punished
to be cut to pieces
by the sword of God
I deserve to be humiliated
beaten out of breath
stoned till death
Hey Guru! The disciple of God
Bestow upon my head thy sacred foot
and crush me beneath the sand
send me to the hell I deserve’

The Guru spoke ‘I bow to thee
pure soul is thine
that accepts with utter humility
the sins it committed
the material life it lived
the meaningless material life it has given up
the soul that has ascended
the highest summit surmountable
that has placed itself to sacrifice
in repentance of the sins committed
past is the life lived
All I can do is bow in front of thee
forgive I can’t the divine present in you
blessed is thy soul transcended’

All my life I asked myself

what is the purpose of life

should I have a goal to attain

to reach the unreachable summit

to save the planet from forces evil

to spread His message among people

why should I live?

to rearrange the pieces on the planet

and build a palace of dreams?

to heal people? to serve them

to give them a helping hand in the hour of need?

Is this why I am born?

All these create commotion in me

they agitate me they make me want to shout

they make me want to cry out loud

I wish to sit in silence and help myself

I wish to help myself fight out the commotion

the agitation – the wish to cry out loud

I wish to sit in peace under the tree

of enlightenment and relax to prepare myself

for another war that needs to be waged

the war is what is the purpose of life

that is what the world makes me think

as I relax and meditate, I give up thoughts

I give up desire – the commotion

the agitation caused by attachment

to that which never belonged to me

I gave up the purpose that never was one

I sat in silence under the bodhi vriksha

seeking in silence, in deep contemplation

the true purpose that made life meaningful

as I searched for the meaning of the meaning

enlightenment dawned upon me

the path is the destiny

the silence the end of the war

was never the means to wage the war

the war you fight to attain peace

should die the suffering should end

the deepest of your self belongs to none

you are not the shallow you

that sees with eyes, lusts for the skin

that finds happiness in dollars

the depth is deeper

yet to be explored, to be explored by you

the ocean of joy is there for you to swim

the contentment in sacrifice

the freedom in commitment

are all yours – the qualities divine

Silence so gross
violence in the eyes
breath sharp biting
thoughts ignited
feelings suppressed
yet silently expressed
expressed the best
as air filled the chest
lips closed n dry
nose sharp n pointed
forehead scarred
ears fuming red hot
hands trembling
ready to kill
with authority
he sucks in air
looks up with rage
tongue dances
and with a striking force
lashes the whip
life ends